You are what you eat.

Yesterday, I ate a lot of wheat. There was a luncheon at work, and I had spinach dip and sourdough, several tiny sandwiches, and then more spinach dip and tortilla chips. A lot of chips.

Today, I feel like crap.
I have a migraine. I have an upset stomach, and bowels. My scalp feels like I have bugs, it is so itchy. My nose has a breakout. My eyes are slightly bloodshot, and my stye that is never going away, is redder, my lids seems inflamed. The inside of my lip has a weird film.
Its a wonder I don't date.
I'm not officially celiac, but there is a definite sensitivity that I need to be mindful of. It could be a myriad of other things, but I'm pretty sure its what I ate.

Make good choices

227, and happy about it. You may think, how? That is up from 220. Yes, but it is down from 230.

Started my serious running training on Sunday. I am ready for this challenge.

My friends decided that for the month of January, "we" should do yoga on Mondays and Fridays. We looked into studios and times and for them, sitters. The first week, 5 of us went to a candlelit session. I discovered I actually kinda like flow yoga, and the instructor's poses were not advanced (this does not mean they were easy). The first Friday we went to a different studio, a different instructor and tried warm yoga. The poses were much harder, we had to hold them for much longer, and I kinda hated it. The next Monday we went to the second place again, (free week for starters) and tried a new class. It was mostly meditation, which is fine, but not what I am interested in. We were down to three, by this point. Friday I had to work, and everyone else bailed. Some had legitimate excuses. It's funny to me that the two who were the most gung-ho, completely slacked. Today we went back to the first place, and I can honestly say I enjoyed the class. I would consider continuing this class. I like the instructor's choices, and I can see where, although I am able to complete the class, I could improve my flexibility and strength if I continued, using variations to go deeper (that's yoga for harder). My posture improves after every class, and I feel completely stretched out, in a good way. It was just my one, motivated friend and I, so I was disappointed for the others because they missed the class, and also I missed them, but glad that my roommate and I did go.

The week is off to a very good start.

Slipping down

Feeling a bit melancholy tonight.
I know its all in my head, but I am feeling a bit unloveable.
I realize this is ironic because I recently had a wonderful birthday party with lots of lovely friends, and then chose to bail out on those friends for their events. I am the distant one, not them.
I seem to be slipping down.
Still don't have my own place, and while it is fun here, I crave my own space.
Have an interview for a full time permanent position, but not feeling confident about that, however I did get moved to a new team with a manager I genuinely like (and don't fear) so work is ok. I just wish I had some security.
I am working on my health, gym and vegetables and all that. Gave up chocolate again after the Christmas extravaganza. Weight is up to reflect all bad choices.
Not a good match, but would really like to meet someone. Just another stress.
Very sad that due to not being able to get days for vacation, and not having money, I am not going to be able to go on a big trip this year. I really need to be more responsible.
I'm worried about my family, here and there.
Going to watch a movie, and try not to wallow so tomorrow will be up.

New Year 2016

Alright, its the new year, time to set some goals and refocus.

This year I am going to run faster and longer.

I want to finish the 10k in under 115, and run a half marathon. 

I will go to the gym 3 times a week, I will try yoga with my friends for January.

I'm going to stop eating chocolate and cut back my sugar. 

I will put myself out there, in the dating pool.

I will read more books. 

I will take care of myself, financially, emotionally, physically and mentally.