Start of the season

Had a really good run this weekend. Next week the hard runs start for 10k training, mostly because I've been slacking since... October, but I feel ready to run now.

Failing up

226.
Had a chocolate binge this week. Feeling the effects of it today. Yet somehow, magically, the scale was nice to me.

Had a frank, in depth conversation with two of my single friends about their recent dating... adventures, and at first I felt like, woah, I should really get out there, but then I started to feel like, if these are the (younger) women I am competing against, why even try? Who would pick me, in comparison. Or even just, as I am.
I wouldn't.

I tried to give myself a pep talk before going out, I went to a birthday party, but I was also supposed to go to a fundraiser. With new people and possibly single men. But my good coach was down, sleeping off the sugar, most likely, and my insecurities were running rampant.
I don't feel like a guy, even a kinda nerdy, soft-bodied, type that I like, would look at me and be attracted. I know it happens, but it doesn't seem to happen to me. Or, not for a long time.

So, instead of whining and wallowing, it is time to get up, go for a run, eat good food, take care of myself and build my confidence up, to someone I recognize and even possibly like. Plus, hang out with my friends, read, and otherwise enjoy life, so when I do meet someone, I'll be... not so crippled with fear, so he, (or the guy after him, its a numbers game)will see how awesome I am.