Wake up, shake up.

Earlier this week I convinced myself to go see a doctor, because I've been fighting to stay awake during the day, (yet I have no trouble being wide awake at night) and my nails have become brittle, and insult above all others, my hair is falling out. My big mane is shedding way more than usual.

So the doc agrees with me, that this needs examining, and testing.

Wait, what?

This is not just a lack of sleep, or vitamins? Among the options were, yes, lack of sleep, low iron, low b12, a thyroid issue, possible liver or kidney problems, or... a heart issue.

A what now?

So, I go get all the tests, and convince myself that I'm very ill.

I see another doc for the results, the fun of not having a gp, and he confirms that there is nothing wrong with me, and the issue is most likely stress.

This has all got me thinking though.

Doing whatever I want is not the same as taking care of myself. 

If I want to avoid the imagined problems, I better make some real changes.

Rollercoaster

So, today has been... weird.

First, work was really, tense, today. The hiring practices for permanent positions are really being questioned, and I've never seen reactions like this. It makes me wonder about my future there.

Second, an apartment on the second floor became available, because she wants my first floor apartment. So we are going to switch.

Third, I got messaged by a very intriguing man, about getting to know each other better.
Alternately, the guy I've been waiting to respond to me, asked my aquaintance out. One door closes... I guess.

There's a theory that when you go in the direction you are meant to go in, things fall in to place. I'm going to focus on the good, and ignore the rest. I'm really glad I moved North.

Setback

Earlier this week I stubbed my toe so hard I nearly broke it. There was purple bruising, and so much pain, but after x-rays I was cleared to run in a few days. Except it's still really sore when I put pressure on it. I have 1 week till the 10k with my sister, and this is not helping.

However, I have 28 weeks till the half marathon, which I'm going to break in to 2 sessions, starting after the 10k. Running requires strength, and endurance. I am going to focus all my efforts to making this a reality.